Yes, You Were

I saw you

Several times in my dreams

Long long time ago

Then

You came up again

Last night

Still in my dream 

So Many (Memory)

So many dances in life

The tearful one

The awesome one

And many others

You know friend…

One I did last night

Just came up that way

It’s scary

Couldn’t stop

That dancing

the wild one 

Don't Blame Others (A Short Conversation)

The mind: “nothing is wrong with you, it’s others fault”

The buddhi:  “huh! Stop doing that”

The mind: “ I make myself comfortable for whatever happens you know”

The buddhi : “you know, whenever you point others with your fore finger, your other three fingers point back to you.  You know what does it mean? It means you must contemplate for whatever happens. Not just simply blaming for others. “

“remember the video by Bapak Anand Krishna kind of talking about this”

Something (lesson)

I made mistake which was using (perhaps) wrong thing then someone become quite busy by posting it in a group. I did not know that I the one who made mistake.

Then, i check my instagram. I found out that, i am the one who made mistake. It was not on purpose you know. But then, i correct the mistake and did my confess. Am i angry or something?

Perhaps not, because i did not do the mistake on purpose. I just typed and i did not check it that it turn to be a quite busy thing (conversation). But then, i should apologize that i've done something wrong.

A little Bit

A little bit complicated.

Thing seems to be alright

But not really

Ya, a bit complicated

Still have to manage

Emotion toward that kind of thing

A bit complicated

Though

Thing must be done 

8th December 2018

Another friend has gone
Leaving us behind

His smiling face has disappeared
But not in our heart

The way he laugh
Still hang around in our mind

So long mas Tunggul!
Thank you for your presence
in this life time

About Something Outside

A voice in my head: “wake up man, nobody cares what you’ve said. Don’t put forward the same opinion of yours again and again. Your friends are tired of it. “

Me:” yeach, so sorry about that. I am sad though. Why can’t they have the same opinion as i do? “

A voice in my head:”people are different you know.  Perhaps they agree with your opinion and they just keep silent. Do not want to talk about it."

Me:”I am sure some of them agree and they also think that i’ve said the right thing to deliver to the forum.”

A voice in my head:”nobody is wrong you know, in that forum all only deliver about opinion. So, no one is right or wrong. Just share the opinion.”

Me:”Yeach, I try to understand it and i will do my best not to say the same thing again. I know they do not like it although....”

I Will Miss You Mba

Monday afternoon

Just another mourn

I remember that last meeting

You’re still able to talk

I asked about Kopi Susu

But then you said it’s gone

It’s a surprised to me

Could not believe it’s a sign

  

There in a bed you laid down

That made my tears rolled down

Thank You (Happy Birthday)

Words cannot describe

How great You are

How wonderful You are

How awesome You are

Yes, You are

Great

Wonderful

Awesome

Definitely, You are

For coming to this world

Again and again

Such honor for me

To see You

To know Your teachings

Ahh...

One Day (only me)

Picture from Google Search

So silent

Nothing come around

No sound

Only sheer of wind smile

But then it said bye

Feel like i die

Something

Really need to be real

To feel 

To You, Sir... (My sadness)

Image: From Google

Well, do not know what to say

Sir, i am sure you’ll be okay

Your faith on Him

Really, makes me think

Oh...

One of Your sons

Is there

Yet,

He is not alone

With his faith on You

Nothing can conquer

It’s really faith that matter

Sir...

You’ll stay strong

As i believe so

Sir...

so sorry

for all pain you carry

Thank You Madam...

Image from Google

“What makes you look in a good mood? Are you in love with someone or.....” My  mind suddenly asked, made me surprised.

“Well, you know what? I’ve got the answer from her. Thing that I have waited for more than 3 days finnaly this early morning came to me,” I explained eagerly.

“She was very late in answering my question because she’s been very busy these days. That’s she said to me also this morning in her message. Knowing that reason, made me a little sad for I’ve bothered her.” I still made my mind listening to me.

Waiting for Answer

Image from Google

“Have you got the answer from her?” a voice which come from my mind started to ask.

“huh, huh,” as I shook my head. 

It’s a conversation between me and my mind. 

I just daydreaming

“Are you upset, disappointed?” the voice keep on asking

“A bit,” I said to myself

“I know why you are upset and disappointed about it. And i completely sure you know the reason,” the voice insisted

“Of course I know. It’s because I really expect she will answer my question which she already promised 4 days ago,”

“And I know expectation leads to disappointment if that expectation is not met.” I said to myself again.

To you, sir

Image form google

It was yesterday sir

Do not worry

You’ll be here easily

In my mind

It was yesterday sir

We count on many

Out there

To make you the one

It was yesterday sir

Still you’re in me

Do not know for how long it seems

But sure you’re

It was yesterday sir

And  i do not understand why

Perhaps it’s your destiny

But it was

It was yesterday sir

And i am still thinking ‘bout it

I wish it was just a dream

Ya, it was just a dream

Yet, all of us were sleeping

For A Close Friend (So long mba...)

Taken from Google

Cancer took you away mba

I am so sad about it

So sorry cause i could not see you

For the last time when you were there

Cancer took you away mba

Now on

I could not see your face

Talk to you

I could not see your smile either

Cancer took you away mba

I thank you for you’re my close friend

I thank you for the love and energy you gave

Cancer took you away mba

I believe that The One will always be with you

Do not worry mba

Or afraid

The One will be by your side 

Anand Krishna about Meditation

Who is Anand Krishna

Born in Solo, Central Java, on the 1st of September 1956, Anand had his early education in Lucknow, North India, where he met his first spiritual mentor, Sheikh Baba. A simple ice vendor, the saint was not known beyond the area he lived in, but played major role in the “making” of Anand Krishna who was already familiar with Sufi poetry and teachings of Shah Abdul Latief of Sindh, through his father, Tolaram.

After months of suffering, mysterious meeting with a Tibetan Lama in the Himalayas, and miraculous recovery from his illness, Anand decided to devote his life to sharing his joy, peace, love and healing.

Question

Taken from Google

What should i do

To whom do i talk to

Nobody is around

Nobody is here

Noboby cares

So many

Come and go

In my mind

The same question

Arrive 

Black (again)

Taken from Google

The sky is black
Seems gonna rain

That's fine

Hey, that man is wearing
Black

All round me
Seems to be
Black

Huh...

That child over there
Has black hair

Welcome August...

Taken from Google

August is in charge now and today is the first day to arrive.

Something to tell but not to crucial i think, but for me it is. So many things in my mind as usual. But thoughts exactly what i mean.

Ya, so many thoughts hang inside my mind, my head.

You know that i do not have many friends, just a few friends. So, i am alone as usual.

It does not really matter, actually. For me it is okay to be alone.

Let me

Let me tell you something

It’s a thing that i am hiding

For long time

You know

But you do not know

All i want to do is

Let you know

Let me tell you

The thing

Ya, that thing

I am hiding for long time

Do you mind

Listening to me?

Words come and go

Many

Yet, I could not say

Anything